Blessed

It would literally be easier to scan the pages of the journal I wrote in and put em up here, but seeing as that I've written more in my journal in these last 2 months than the last 2 years...it'd be a little lengthy!
It's been 2 weeks since our sweet Cannon left to go to Jesus' house (cute lil Leah's words). It feels like a blur really...the hospital stays, the procedures, the docs and nurses - it doesn't seem like it even happened. I can't help but feel like I'm in a dream sometimes.
It's no secret that our darling boy has been nothing short of a complete and utter miracle. Here's very short synopsis from his Life Story that I shared at his funeral:

We were blessed to have had him home from May 15th- July 15th. What a happy lil’ man he was. A few things he loved: a full tummy, his green binkie, mom’s pillow, watching ESPN with daddy, being read to, warm baths and the blowdryer. He had the most kissable cheeks, he cooed and smiled when you told him how stinkin’ cute he was. He LOVED being snuggled and could rarely be put down without getting fussy. I would jokingly ask if it was normal for a baby to want to be held as much as he did! I’m grateful for this b/c I now realize he wanted US to hold him as much as possible.
He had been going to his cardiologist to monitor his heart function. They found thru EKG halters that he was having arrhythmia issues 20% of the time & also 3-4 second heart pauses and therefore needed surgery to correct this issue. I do not question if the surgery could have been postponed for a time because he was having these issues with hardly any noticeable symptoms and could have very easily passed at any time if it had not been addressed. 
On July 20th, Cannon underwent open heart surgery at Phoenix Children‘s Hospital. Because of the massive amounts of chest tube drainage following that, he also had to have 2 other procedures to try and help stop the draining. Cannon’s recovery process was a constant battle - but you could always feel his strength when he gripped his tiny hand around your fingers. People who came to visit would tell us how overwhelming his spirit was when they walked into our room. He had an amazing medical team of doctors and nurses who genuinely cared for him. After 41 long and hard fought days, he departed this world peacefully back into the presence of our Heavenly Father.


I read "Oh! The Places You'll Go" by Dr. Suess from the pulpit. There is a book cart at the hospital that comes around and I had always loved this book...but I couldn't help but interpret it differently reading it to Cannon this time. It pretty much summed up my feelings exactly. I hope I didn't ruin the book for everyone!

I can't even begin to thank everyone who has reached out to us, visited us in the hospital, brought us meals, sent us flowers and heartfelt cards. We are overwhelmed with feelings of love and appreciation. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

Anais sent me this quote that I shared, The Prophet Joseph Smith said,
"The Lord takes many away, even in infancy, that they may escape the envy of man, and the sorrows and evils of this present world; they were too pure, too lovely, to live on earth; therefore, if rightly considered, instead of mourning we have reason to rejoice as they are delivered from evil, and we shall soon have them again."